Moving Forward...

Truly, it feels as though the wheels of my life are steadily gaining momentum. I'm not moving at mock-10 speed, but the direction is fantastically forward. I have power over my life and each day feels like an accomplishment. Happy Day.

A Year....has FLOWN by. And now......Passions Collide.

I can not believe it's been over a year since i last wrote here. Maybe I did that on purpose just to psychologically prove to myself that time is most definitely....fleeting. Fleet as you must, dear time, I will always respect that I have no greater asset than you. And cherish, I will, all that you tend to erase...

So here I am . I am in such a different place since I last took pen to paper. Or better yet, keys to monitor. (I still write in a journal, so I am still 'ole school.') In fact, I will never NOT have a journal. I've learned more about the life I have lead by the truths I have put to paper. It's scary at times, but so very liberating at others. I'm my own therapist. it's cheaper too. Sidebar.

I believe life takes many turns. And I also believe that when you put down the expectations that arise from being something you are not, you become something of who you are. Yes, whimsical and catagorically a bit touchy feely but hey..it's a blog. I let it flow.

To those who have been by my side, seen me fall, seen me rise...and yet you still remain...you are the loves of my life. As I continue on my journey, you are the road signs and guidance I sometimes need to continue to be who I am. I bow to you and your friendship - the power you have to keep me rockin.

I am 35. And I am walking along the path of the life I've dreamt of and always wanted.. I'm letting my passions be the driving force behind my day-to-day and my big picture. And while it took what seems like lifetimes to achieve....i am here. And whatever the next stage...I am ready. Eyes wide open, mind ready to absorb, and heart strong.

KKR

Moving forward...

Thank you to everyone who read and supported this blog. I have moved on to freelance writing for the Examiner.com. You can find my articles here:

Denver Photography Examiner- Kelly Rush

This blog will remain online, and will be written in every now and again, as i move into new stages of my life- I am very excited!

Happy Holidays!

A LITTLE ABOUT ME & MY PASSION FOR PHOTOGRAPHY

I started seriously photographing when I was 13. I took my dad's camera, a Canon AE-1 on a vacation to a golf course in Fort Collins, Co. I spent the entire trip, having hijacked our neighbors golf cart, photographing the course and a couple golfers..who I convinced I was shooting for a golf magazine...

I was hooked.

My passion for architecture was born when I was...

That year, my parents began subscribing to ARCHITECTURAL DIGEST. I grew up with that beautiful magazine all over the house...I took my love for the construction and designing of homes seriously enough that I used to design homes throughout grade school and into high school. At one point, my thought was "become an architect." I went to school at UA in Tucson to do just that, but it didn't feel entirely right.

Not sure what I wanted to do or be "when I grew up" I moved away from architecture and studied & graduated with a degree in business from the University of Denver (majored in Real Estate & Construction), not necessarily a bad decision, but again, not entirely focused on what/who I wanted to become.

Over time my love of architecture and design transformed into the photography of such subjects. Here and there, I would shoot not quite understanding why I loved it so much....until I attended Photography school...i honed a passion into an understanding of my skills and what I loved to shoot. And soul-searching through different times in my life has lead me back to where I started...ARCHITECTURE.

So, while, I love to shoot many subjects, I have come to realize after all these years, that it was my love of architecture and that of the creative that has driven my passion for photographing it and my technically-driven mind that has absorbed the knowledge & skills to do so in my own style.

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The Connection

A Connection: "a person who is influential and to whom you are connected in some way (as by family or friendship); "he has a powerful connection with his sister"

I believe in "connections." I believe in the way in which a human being can change the way we move through life. And even though sometimes I question why it is I've met someone, and they've had this sort of power over me...I know it's an important step in moving forward.

There are a few connections that I am currently seeing each day..they enter and leave my mind throughout the day. Slowly a couple get fainter and fainter, and I hope I have been insightful enough to let them impact my life entirely and purposefully.

Monday, again.

Belief in One's Self

Big shots are only little shots who keep shooting.
-- Christopher Morley

It's very easy to become disenchanted with the pursuit of success. One's success is and should not be defined as reaching one point, but continually achieving that which makes you a better you.

I don't need to be a BIG DEAL. I just want to be the best me possible. That will take time, and serious perseverance.

Welcome to another Monday.

Damn.

Life just does NOT get any easier does it?

Do I?

1. Still believe in Soul Mates? Absolutely.
2. Still believe in one love forever? Absolutely.
3. Still believe my life is waiting to teach me amazing things? Absolutely.
4. Still have so many things I want to do? Absolutely.
5. Still wish I'd be true to myself more often? Absolutely.
6. Still have people in my life I want to know more about? Absolutely.
7. Still wake up every morning thinking about one person? Absolutely.
8. Still have love in my heart even for those who have hurt me? Absolutely.
9. Still think about how my life would be different if I took different turns along the way? Absolutely.
10. Still believe in fate and never looking back? Abso-fricken-lutely.

Your Journey Is Not Yours Alone..

I heard this great quote this morning while I was getting ready: "Don't isolate your journey, it's not just for you."

It really hit me hard for some reason. I started thinking about all the people whose lives I've touched, good and bad. There are so many who have touched mine...

How cool life is.

Today is a big day for me...today, my journey continues..

It's Been A While

I haven't written anything in a while, not sure why. Maybe I lost interest. Maybe I didn't like what I would have written. None-the-less, I need this in my life again. I need the honesty that comes with putting yourself out there for all to see.

1. "The Loss of a Life" I lost one of my beloved dogs, Titan, July 10 of this year. He was 14 years old. We put him down after he was diagnosed with lymphoma. He lived two weeks after the diagnosis. As I drove to my parent's house that day, I can't recall exactly how I felt, b/c I was having this weird out of body experience. I think I had to, in order to deal with the fact that I was about to experience the death of something/one, so very close to my heart. He was my first rescue, back in 2001, he was 5. So to me, he was something like a child. He enriched our lives, as we gave him his... But that day, we had to take his away. Six hours after arriving, he was quickly dying. As the vet arrived to put him down, we all sat around him and cried. Sometimes I believe that those of us who die young in life, too early to have done any wrong, come back as those faithful, beautiful animals who  enrich our lives so much. As we said goodbye to Titan, I looked around me at the amazing family I have...and I realized that I am one lucky girl. I am in awe of the life I have had, and the people around me who have have shared in it with me.

2. "When Relationships End." I started writing in my journal again towards the end of my last relationship. (I've had one for about 12 years.) It has been so therapeutic to be honest with myself. Mostly, I have never gone through anything so painful, confusing, heartbreaking, and overall...just sad. What I realized more importantly, is that I am thankful everyday that I met someone who opened my heart again. I have moved into the next stage of my life..one where my heart is finally open and strong. (But, I miss my friend, my favorite cooking buddy...God, I really do.) Like I always joke, but am actually very serious, it's the little things that give a real positive dimension to our lives. And it's those little things we miss the most when they are gone.

3."The Loss of Esteem" The other amazingly crazy situation was losing my job. Getting laid off last year was one of the oddest experiences I have ever had. Having never lost a job in any way, it threw me into a spiral that I never could see coming. It was such a slow downward turn, because at first it was nice to spend more time on my passion, photography....But, I woke up one day feeling the floor. The bottom. I looked up and my life seemed so very far away.

But what I know, is that with downturns come inevitably upswings. Always.

One thing, one ability I have always had is to take experiences and allow them to mold me into who I want to be...I am continuing on that path, sometimes overwhelmed with emotion, but with the power of certainty that I have always felt deep within.

I continue to do the best I can to be a positive force in this world, and until the day that I stop being that kind of person, I will never regret anything in my life. I find inspiration in the little things, in people who smile at me on the street, in a beautiful photograph, in the comfort of a true friend, and the belief that LOVE is all around me.

I believe, each of us has a path we are meant to follow. I continue to look for the signs that lead me.  With each step I take, I simply believe this is where I belong. I welcome what will happen next with an open mind, open heart, and a new found strength that was not here before.